I think I have a built in coping mechanism that has activated to enable me not to think about or feel the sadness of leaving people close to us. Sometimes I have wondered if I have been emotionless and almost hard hearted as my excitement to go to India has far out weighed the sadness of leaving New Zealand and people I love. I do believe God has helped me to do this and it is not that I will not miss people but the call of God is so strong that my passion for India and the people of India has taken a special place in my heart.
The truth of the matter is that if I let my mind stop and think about the inevitable leaving then the odd tear has been shed. I feel for my kids and their special friends that I know it will be heart wrenching for them to leave. I think of our parents and our siblings, grandparents,cousins and close friends and I know that there will come a time to say goodbye and it will be hard.
I have had times with two of my closest friends, Sonya and Erin, where we have touched on the subject of leaving and our catch phrase is that it is "forbidden to talk about." Sonya and I have had the odd teary moment already, not only is she my special friend but our kids are such good friends, this is the same with Erin. I also feel for Leigh who is Daya's best mate and I know her mum Tina is not looking forward to the departure time, Tina has also been a great friend to me. The great thing is that with technology like skype we can still keep in contact. We will always be friends and I know that these friends will be the ones I ring when the times are tough. They are the ones who have been such great supports to us already and who are helping us live our dream for India and who encourage us and support us.
My parents have already organised to come see us next year as they are going over seas anyway. My brother is also going with them and they plan to spend about a week with us. It will help to know we will see them in a few months when we say our farewells at the airport.
We are wondering about having a Bollywood farewell party. Could be fun.
Jodi I feel so honoured to be your friend. My heart is so full of .....stuff! Feeling my dreams fill my heart again....I know that I know that God has put them there in my heart, and waiting expectantly to see what happens over the next few years.
ReplyDeleteI like the idea of a Bollywood party! That could be so much fun and keeps it light hearted.