Thought and emotions

We are still in the settling stages at the moment. Still trying to establish our new house as a home and still trying to figure out how everything works in the city of Bangalore. I do not feel home sick yet and am loving all our new experiences but sometimes feel a bit restricted having a 19mnth old who needs day time sleeps. It would be great to just head out for a day and have no restriction. Jaxon tends to get a bit grumpy when tired and wont sleep in my arms. Apart from that there is nothing too major that I would change.

The kids have all been amazing and adaptable and although a couple of them would return to New Zealand at the drop of the hat, no one is complaining or moody about it. Everyone knows that this is where God wants us so this is where we will be.

(L) has made a friend in an apartment on our level and they play together for as long as they can each day. There is also a play ground in the apartment grounds so all the kids go play badminton, tiggy etc when school is out. There must be about 12 kids, not counting ours, that all play together. It is where our kids will probably start to pick up an Indian accent. I am actually looking forward to seeing how their speech changes.

I still feel I am trying to find out who I am in all these changes and it may sound strange but when I meet new people and I am not relaxed around them, I am not my true self. It is still very surface relationships but I know that will change over time. We are finding that Indians get our sense of humor and they tend to be quite funny themselves. I guess I am trying to work out what may be offensive or how I should be in certain situations. What I am finding is that most people we meet seem very tolerant and forgiving and are quite relaxed. I think in time my brain will stop trying to analyse every situation and I will be able to just enjoy and be me again.

Over all, we are all enjoying life here in India and we are feeling more at home. After having our friend Tony come to stay, I feel like normality is returning. (normality in the very broad sense of the word.) I look forward to the day I feel confident to go into the local township on my own.