Getting my head around stuff

Some times I sit back and say "Why us God?" not because I don't want to go but because we feel inadequate. I know that God will equip us for what is needed and as long as we remain teachable and open to God then he will build his church, but, still there are those thoughts that nag every now and then saying, "What the heck are we doing????" Usually when David and I talk about this we end up laughing.

As a wife, I know it is my job to support my husband and be there to encourage him and build him up.
I am not sure I have been doing so well at this lately. I have been a bit too wrapped up in practical stuff that I have side lined some of the important stuff. I have full confidence in my wonderful husband, he is very non religious and weighs everything carefully. He has such a solid and grounded biblical world view. I think I need to change my question of " what the heck are we doing?" to "How the heck do you want us to do this God?"
We are in a total reliance on God situation which I believe is a good place to be.

I have a hard job telling people that we are going to start a church and there is probably a couple of reasons for this.

The first reason is that I think people may think- Who, you???? I know, I just need to get over this and stand firm on the fact that we have so clearly heard from God that whether we feel inadequate or not, God wants to use us.

The second reason is that the usual perception of starting a church is that you find a building and fill it with people. I don't think that is how it will happen. My Idea of starting a church is that a natural collection of people begin to meet together at a home or where ever it naturally happens. Relationships are formed, you pray, discuss, teach, worship together and when you can no longer meet where you are due to lack of space, you then get a bigger meeting place. I guess time will tell how things unfold in this area once we are living in India.

So as you can see, there are a lot of things circling around in my head.
It will be interesting to look back over this one day when we are further down the track and see the process of how God works everything out in the end.