"Chill the hell out"

So here we are back from our trip and I am amping. I am ready to sell up and ship out. I was online looking for housing and cheap airfares, jobs for David. It was hard to contain my excitement. The next step was to tell the family and chat with the leaders at church and get their input.

One day David came home and I am discussing all sorts of ways we could do things. I didn't think I was over the top but I must have been because David looked at me and quite bluntly told me to "chill the hell out". It did kind of ground me again and I tried to put the breaks on my enthusiasm but it was really hard.

The next blunt news that helped tone me down was that while we were away in India my brothers marriage had come to a crisis. He had found someone else and left his wife and kids. I was devastated, I found it so hard to accept that my own brother could do such a thing. My poor Mum really struggled and for many months we could not talk without her crying. Family is so important to us and Mum felt like she had lost a son. David and I decided it was not a good time to tell her that we were going to up and leave for India. We did however talk to my Dad and told him how we were feeling. He was great and supportive but also thought it was not good to tell my Mum just yet until we had something a bit more definite.

We spoke with some of the leaders at our church and I was not really sure what sort of response we would get. Some very good questions were asked and some of the answers we had to give made me realise that our move to India would not be as quick as I had hoped.
We were asked if we felt we had completed everything here that God wanted us to do and to be honest, we had to say no. It made us realise that the call was stronger but the timing was still questionable. The leadership said they were not saying don't go but they were saying wait and they would continue to pray for us. I would be lying if I didn't say that I have felt frustrated and impatient and I did question at times if the leadership had it right, but to now be in a place where we see God leading so clearly I am glad we waited. I am learning more and more to let God's timing take priority, I say learning beacause I can still try and jump the gun. It can be a bit of an inward battle.